newbie_ . love[ley]

I havent been on this thing for a while. got into it with mmy life_and felt i had to situate myself a little more before i started readin about everyone elses again. _smh. still stuck tho. me and my father dont get along. at all_i jus tolerate him. I think thats what everyoen does to this man._ my mom even admitted it. TOLERATE. y tho? is that what you do wen u can't control someone that you have to be around. _its not fair. but thats life...hense why i said i got into it with my life....and not "i got into it with my dad" .....even tho...thats wat happened.....

tears. tears. and more tears. "no one cares"....excpet my mom of course...i love her.

... well this was the morning of easter. like 1am-4am..... and then i went to sleep to wake up to appear happy at church...... _smh

so...i did so. i enjoyed my easter.......although i was super sleepy. _ didnt really have an "easter outfit planned" ....but i did like how the clothing came out to be....

TODAY: i found new love for two artist....and a pair of shoes.. _i must get

Janelle Monae: an artist i new i liked...jus never really took time for her ...until today.. _shes so beautiful and talented. i love her because, shes not scared to be different and shes so [young] . plz look into her if you already haven't.....

Big Sean: This artist just got signed by Kanye West....and his music is amazing. http://www.imeem.com/people/Ke1E72/playlist/afteokWJ/big-sean-mix-tape-music-playlist/ jus listen to him_and u'll know where im coming from. i needa meet him. [respects]

..... my shoes: i want some saddle shoes... _dont ask y..i jus doo... i been wanted them and couldnt figure otu what they were called to by them offline... _nwo i KNOW..saddle shoes... hmm

top model x 2...smh

so i wanna start this modeling thing already 

_building portfolio's...... excited. to start

im obsessed with the sight model mayhem.....[great for aspiring models. btw]

Now! remember in a previous blog i said how there would be another casting call in NEW YORK after the near death experience at the last one.?

well...its on saturday.. [no advance warnings] lol thank god i was searchin the web and found out by mistake... well hopefully this one ends up better than the last. [PLEASE TYRA] . 

ON THAT NOTE: im goin to the mall today do some shoppin =] with my cuz's cuz. lol...its gonna be us 3 plus a few this summer...jammin' cant wait. !.. SEE.C come the fuck home dayum. 

I MISS U GURL.

lectures_off

ok. so um...im tired of being compared to the world. cuz im not _the world....and i dont care to resemble every perfect person i come across.... all my parents do is pound on me about how much im not like _the other one. I DONT GIVE A FUCK.

was that too harsh? well_that still doesnt get my point across unfortunately....all i can do is wait for time to go by...and im finally out of this freakin house...again.
sometimes the best thing to do is remain silent "u have the right to remain silent everything you say or do will be used against you in the court of law" [somethin like that]. i mean...anything i say in my deffense ends up smacking me in the face..and im still wrong. _theres no point in arguing with the ones who birthed u.....cuz...they dont CARE about wat u have to say. lol even if u agree but use different wording "well you should have said it this way" ....shut the FUCK up.

_heyyy my name is shawntika i sniff coke and have 3 babies by 3 different men, neva got my GED. and prostitute my body to make a living......... [maybe they should experience that] .......

_hey my name is ashley marie..and i live ontop of a frieakin mountain stranded, phone stolen, 2broken cameras, no ipod, no job, and a compuuter that works wen it damn pleases FML... but no i dont "fuck my life" i still smile....why?! .....idk...but i hope it stays this way.

im currently finding myself.. _not saying i was lost before. but i want to find myself thru my own eyes and not those of my parents.....or others_ sometimes i feel like this world is just about acting and scripts....like everyone knows what to say and when to say it...and im always forgetting my "lines"...... did i miss the memo.? did god have a meeting and tell everyone how to make life perfect.....? idk...

to the left to the left...all ya funky words and ya points they cant step.

DizZyana MiXtape _ download now

ookk...soo new MiX TAPE:

DizZyana "no hooks"

http://www.mediafire.com/?m1mnojhzohdhzohd

Simply amazing. _i mean the nigga is lyrically gifted. I had to share this with my fellow bloggers! Download it now....for FREE [click above link]while you still can. Please dont wait till his album drop to be like "wait, i know that kid"... lol..... support. support. support. Listen to the first track [Intro] to learn more about my boy_.

Kids push packs get scratched they palms itchen
Moms at work and pop is gone missin
Forced to deal with the cold world no mittens
No hats_no scarves.
Niggas been to hell n back with no scars
-sweet

Ain’t no b*#&3 round here except you hoe
Space age pimpin my swag is on Pluto
And im superbad like the kid off juno
I am mc lovin_Getting shit faced wakeup remember nuthin
-special delivery

This is just the beginning of the album_ something light for ya'll to grasp onto until your downloads are complete and bumpin in ya stereos.